The end of my Virtual Life

It’s funny how I always get the urge to write when I’m really tired. Perhaps this is a good way to overcome writers-block and actually finish my novel, who knows? Writing in over-tired zombie mode could either be really creative and imaginative or it could be a total disaster. There’s only one way to find out, but I’ll leave that for another day. Right now I just want to share some recent news with you.

In all honesty, not much has changed since my last personal blog update. I’m still a hermit, still single and still working on what I’ve been working on. I have however, made an important decision that should drastically improve my life over the coming months…

Remember how I blogged about why I chose to live a virtual life? Well, after much deliberation I’ve finally come to realize that by living a virtual life I was actually wasting my life. Since becoming addicted to Second Life back in 2007, I’ve never thought that I’d actually see the day where I’d say ‘enough, it’s over.’ But that day has come. For far too long I have invested far too much time, energy and money into virtual living that would’ve taken me to great success in the real world, if only I hadn’t waste it all on fake pixel stuffs.

The virtual world that had first seemed to be a modern matrix-like safe haven of imagination and creative freedom has degraded my life down to the point where I’ve become a hermit, never leaving the house unless I absolutely have to, afraid to deal with real people, not having any friends in the nearby physical world, giving up my real world business to focus only on my virtual life, spending thousands of dollars on virtual goods instead of real clothes and electronics, and thinking that it’s all OK, that it’s normal. Maybe I just took things to the extreme? Maybe there are people who can balance living in both the virtual and the real world without hassle? Either way, I’ve woken up and realized that it was destroying me. It is time to put an end to the madness, time to unplug, time to wake up to reality and to take control of my life, my REAL life.

My premium membership will only expire in a few months so I’ll still be logging on from time to time to catch up with friends and to cash out or give any virtual currency. I’ve got nothing against those who still love and live in Second Life but, it’s not for me and I have to move on to things that can bring real joy. I can understand the great value of living a virtual life if you’re disabled or suffering from serious health issues but for me I see no point in living a virtual life. I’m young, healthy and talented with my whole life in front of me. Throwing away physical awesomeness for a pixel perfect virtual life is really just a waste. Second Life is a fun game or virtual art installation that I could log into from time to time but that’s about it. To live a virtual life as if it were my own is unnatural. I have woken up to reality and this is where I choose to stay.

Getting out of this ditch that I’ve “virtually” lived myself into is going to take some time. I’ll have to start getting used to dealing with real people again, going out to real clubs and hanging out with real friends, although this shouldn’t be too difficult, right? It’s only been a couple of yours since I’ve had any such interaction (apart from the occasional shopping and dining-out with my family and boyfriend).  I guess you’ll have to stay tuned to follow me as I quest to find my way back to reality (LOL?). – On the contrary, maybe I’m pulling this way out of proportion? Either way I know that I’ve had enough of the fake pixel bullshit and I want REAL awesomeness. Goodbye virtual life.