It’s been a really long time since I’ve gone for a walk on my own. I’ve decided to change that and to brave the streets on my own. Usually I would only leave the house with my boyfriend or family. Since I have no real friends in the area (you’re all in other countries) I never really have any reason to leave the house unless I’m going shopping but, even my shopping happens mostly online at the moment. As flashy and outgoing as my website might make me seem, the reality is quite different. For the past year I’ve  spend most of my days at home except for the rare occasion when the boyfriend and I would go out for dinner or cocktails. I can’t actually remember the last time that I went for a walk on my own. I have this stigma against the locals which has kept me locked up in house most of the time. That was not a racist statement just in case you’re wondering. By locals I mean: ignorant homophobic Afrikaans folk and Afrikaans is a language not a race so… problem?. It was really nice for me to walk around the neighborhood again and I’m sure my dog enjoyed it too.

Even though summer is in the air, nature proved that it’s not here yet. I was really hoping to see some awesome greenery but instead I saw this:

Unfortunately I didn’t take any pictures of myself in my summer gear, reason being that I was thinking about many things other than myself today (can you believe it? ) I actually did quite a lot of thinking on my walk while blasting techno house through my earphones of course. While we’re on the topic of “me”… I’ve decided to get out more and to share more of what I do each day which is after all the main reason why I started blogging in the first place. I really miss sharing all of my life with the world but I’ve stopped sharing everything because I’ve felt insecure; constantly worrying about what others might think.

Due to this insecurity I became disconnected from the things which I used to care about, instead falling into a virtual world where I could simply log off whenever I felt judged. Today I realized that I don’t give a fuck what people think because I love being me and nothing will ever change that. If I happen to share intricate details about my life which ends up being judged or mislabeled by some random stranger it really won’t bother me one bit. I love life and I love sharing it with the world!