At first I didn’t really want to blog about this so soon – if ever, knowing at the back of my mind that things will probably sort themselves out and that my broken relationship would be healed in a few days when everything returns to normal again. But, it is time to put an end to this vicious cycle once and for all by making myself a public promise that I will not fall back into this pit again.
My relationship has been a roller coaster ride for the past 6 years. We’ve split up countless times then got back together again only to split up again over the same or a very similar issue again and then once again getting back together again and again and again. So the circle continued over and over again. At one point I was so emotionally drained by it all that I even tried to do something really stupid to myself. Now after that incident I have decided that I will simply not go through it again. I refuse to fall back into this this pit! I’m breaking the cycle and starting a new chapter in my life today.
After my twitter update stating the end of my relationship many friends wanted a detailed explanation. Since I’m living such an open life I thought that it would be appropriate to post that explanation here since all my friends follow my blog anyway, or at least I think they do.
There were many issues in my relationship that needed sorting out but the circumstances definitely pulled the last straw. Due to the fact that we only saw each other about once a month made it really difficult to ignore all the other issues. I cannot be monogamously coupled with someone I only see once a month. I’m not the long distance relationship kind of guy. That’s just NOT ME. The decision to break things off was mostly a mutual agreement since we were both very unhappy and have both spoken out about taking a break numerous times. But, let’s be honest here, we all know that taking a break never really works and two wrongs don’t make a right so it is time to let go and to move on.
In all honesty I still love him. I feel broken inside and to provide a pre-answer to your question: No I am not okay! These things hurt but time heals all wounds and I really hope that it won’t take too long. One thing is for certain though – This time there will be no going back once my wounds have healed. It’s done. Over. Gone. I will not stay stuck in this vicious cycle. A new life awaits: The single life.
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